into this slump.
Grief is not linear. People kept telling me that once this happened or that passed, everything would be better. Some people gave me one year to grieve. They saw grief as a straight line, with a beginning, middle, and end. But it is not linear. It is disjointed. One day you are acting almost like a normal person. You maybe even manage to take a shower. Your clothes match. You think the autumn leaves look pretty, or enjoy the sound of snow crunching under your feet. Then a song, a glimpse of something, or maybe even nothing sends you back into the hole of grief. It is not one step forward, two steps back. It is a jumble. It is hours that are all right, and weeks that aren’t. Or it is good days and bad days. Or it is the weight of sadness making you look different to others and nothing helps.Ann Hood, Comfort; A Journey Through Grief
And I can’t be running back and fourth forever between grief and high delight.J.D Salinger
Grief might be, in some ways, the long aftermath of love, the internal work of knowing, holding, more fully valuing what we have lost.Mark Doty, “Don’t They Know?”
he got all the girls i bet